Shhh..."He gives quietness." Job 34:29

This was the verse attached to my devotional on January 31st. Little did I know that this was the theme of my entire month of February.

January was a month of unrest for me. I found tears in my eyes so many times, in so many places and in so many situations. If you follow my blog at all, you know that my favorite place to cry is in my shower, but in January tears seemed to spill out in all other areas of my life. It was a little unnerving to those who didn't know me well. So, I took my tears to the Lord. I began to call out - cry out - for an answer to the unrest. My quiet tears really did grow strong in some of those showers. The word for the year had been chosen and it was REFRESHED...so what was going on? On January 23rd, this was my verse, "Why, O LORD, do you stand so far off?" (Psalm 10:1) Have you ever had these times in your life where you cry out to the Lord and the louder you get, the quieter He seems? Well, let me just give you a peek at what I found the Lord saying to me in the month that would follow Job 34:29, "He gives quietness", which translated to me, "Shhh...listen girl."

February 1: "This is my doing." I Kings 12:24
February 2: "In the shadow of His hand He hid me..." Isaiah 49:2
February 7: "Why are you downcast, O my soul?" Psalm 43:5
February 8: "Surely I am with you always." Matthew 28:20
February 9: "He will quiet you with His love." Zephaniah 3:17
February 12: "Your Heavenly Father knows." Matthew 6:32
February 14: "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!" Phil. 4:4
February 16: "Although I have afflicted you, I will afflict you no more." Nahum 1:12
February 18: "Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." Mark 11:24
February 20: "Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20
February 21: "Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him." Psalm 37:7
February 22: "If you can?...Everything is possible for him who believes." Mark 9:23
February 26: "My grace is sufficient for you." 2 Corinthians 12:9

I did find rest. I realized while being quiet before the Lord, that all His promises are true and available to me. Isaiah 30:15 says, "...in quietness and trust is your strength..." I wish I could completely fill you in on all that God is doing in my life. I can't right now, but I found a peace that passes my understanding during this last month. I needed that more than I needed answers to all the questions I put before the Lord in January. My Lord is faithful and I know He heard all of those questions. And they didn't go away, but to rest in His sovereignty - to take the journey of faith, this is peace. I found a new favorite quote during February that says, "Faith is the 'Amen' to God's 'Yes', then takes its hands off it and allows God to finish His work." Can you walk in faith without peace? I don't know. Unrest seemed to equal worry and anxiety for me. But I found that when quiet enough, I can hear the Lord speaking to my soul, "God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns." (Psalm 46:5)

March 1: "Consider what God has done: Who can straighten what He has made crooked?" (Ecclesiastes 7:13) I wonder what the Lord has in store for this month? Here we go...